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Friday, November 13, 2009

Sigh......

juz wanna say i'm so sick of looking at my own image n disgusted with my own self. i don't want to be anybody else though...
juz hating my own
head
mind
body
soul
n no,
mother, i don't blame it on u for bringing me into this world.
for that i can't thank u enough for giving me the chance to be a part of your llife.
i beg your forgiveness for not being your shining star nor a glittering diamond
this heart of mine seems....
uncontented with its own existence
i juz can't forgive myself.....
but no worries mother,
i'll do my best to achieve this dream that we dreamt together as a whole family
i won't give up no matter how often i said that i will
i will always pray for u everytime before i go to sleep if i remember,which is always
in case i will no longer wake up. at least that is some last deed i did for u
even it might not be  as much as what u did for me
mother, i'm sorry for hating u so much
hope that u always know that
whatever happens
wherever i am
whenever i breathe
i will always love u unconditionally
mother, i know u love me
but i really hope that u'll know that i love u too...